semalam, 19.06.2008, hari khamis..
abah gue dimasukkan ke hospital kerana kesukaran untuk bernafas.. dari ofis gue terus balik ke rumah, dan by d time gue sudah sampi rumah, ambulans dah pun tiba.. kak an menangis, mata dia sudah merah.. anak buah gue Uki juge sudah bengkak mate nye.. gue terus masuk ke bilik abah gue, & Cik Azkah sedare gue was holding his hand.. gue cuma lihat sahaja.. tegak.. kaku.. kemudian abah gue dimasukkan ke dalam ambulans.. Mak & Kak An yg ikut nek ambulans..
gue follow from d back.. was i sad att tt time?? of course i was.. tapi yg gue hairan, gue begitu relax.. tenang.. bukan gue x takut kiranya abah gue pergi, gue takut sangat, tp time tu gue cume berserah sahaja.. jodoh & maut di tangan Tuhan bukan?? gue drove laju gak lah.. gue called Kak An & abah gue di wad kecemasan.. lama juga tunggu.. doktor masukkan abah gue ke wad..
abah gue bukan sesak nafas mcm semput tu, tapi rasa sakit bila nak bernafas.. abah cakap bila dia bernafas ketumbuhan dia yg kt perut tu rasa sakit sangat.. gue pun selama ini mmg sengaja x mahu tengok ketumbuhan tu ternampak gak... it's gettin bigger & harder.. gue sentuh.. keras sangat.. hati gue dah berdebar2.. tp gue x nangis pun.. gue masih boleh buat ketawa.. kakak gue marah bila gue ketawa coz nt org ingat gue x sayang abah.. tp gue x setuju dgn pandangan kakak gue.. i know wat i feel, & it's my right.. i don'r wana cry b4 him.. i want him 2 b strong..
just now, Kak Yanti called me & suruh gue terus pergi ke hospital. cos sedare dah ramai di sana.. abah pula x kurang2 sakitnya... hopefully nothin serious..
Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu yg lemah ini... berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi saat2 yg paling sukar ini..
1 comment:
hey stay strong my friend.
yes, i agree with you that no point crying. Crying alone doesn't help to solve the problem.
Your father need your strongest morale support. Show to him that you are strong. You are there for him. Don't make him feel bad by seeing all of you cry.
I believe he already has enough pain on his own. He don't wish to see the pain get down to his family. Anaifanim, stay strong.
By the way, I kept address you as anaifanim, sounds odd. How should I address you? Ifa?
I'll pray for your father. Stay strong my friend.
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